Today I've been having a rough day just trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel. I am a very passionate, caring and non tolerant person. I have to start off with how I feel.
I haven't been working as hard as I usually am to get to my career. I never lose interest but my full attention to myself is low! I feel lost because what I want is just to be happy and to get this career. The other things that could come into this ultimate goal varies. I'm a very strong person and I never thought I would find(I wasn't looking) someone that had a drive or just even on the same page as me, its very rare. The beginning is always great, I've dated before but I never wanted a relationship I always wanted a friendship and of course because of the friendship that we developed it lead to more than that. I care about this person alot but I'm at a point that I'm not as important to him. My feelings are hurt and I feel stupid because I had a good thought about my career being somewhere different at this moment. I shouldn't be as hard on myself because I can say honestly I'm in better situations than others and I'm doing well!
My problem is that as much as I want things to be right, the right thing to do is leave it in GOD's hands. Prayer works!
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